So I should be finishing up a two week old post about the my adventures with the "new things". Which just kept getting longer and longer the more time that has passed because I keep procrastinating. And even though I'm not focusing on that post I'm not procrastinating I promise! If any of that made sense...
The point is something extraordinary happened tonight that I just want to get out. To say this without any explanation is really weird. And to give an explanation is to tell my life story. I plan on doing that eventually in this blog, but I don't think I should just blurt it all out in one short post. I am not sure that is even possible either with my story. Besides the point of telling my story is supposed to be a journey in itself - one that will hopefully help someone out there in the Intrernet stratosphere because that is the point of recovery and sharing ones story. That's what I eventually hope will happen considering no one really knows about this blog just yet.
So let me start with this explanation and promise that I will explain it all in time. My step-mother did something awful 15 years ago. She ended up having to go to prison recieving 15 years to life. I told someone the whole story yesterday for the first time in a long time and remembered that fact. Fifteen years and she could get out for good behavior. So that means that as of this year she possibly could be free.
In reality thoughts of her arose several weeks ago when I first thought of doing this blog. When I discussed with my mother my ideas for this blog, her first instinctual response was, "You can't do that because what if she reads it." And that's really the first extraordinary thing that happened: I wasn't afraid of her. For the first time, in 15 years, my first instinct when deciding to doing something that would put me out in the world wasn't of fear of her. I was startled to realize I truly was free of those feelings. Its been a long hard road and I look forward to discussing that in this blog.
But tonight I was attending my bible study (the one that was my accidental new thing from the previous post) and after an amazing session of discussing passages in Romans we started to discuss prayer requests. One of the participants works for CPS (Child Protective Services) and she discussed a request about a child who was in a "non-accidental incident" and how the child wasn't going to survive the injury. It was a little too close to home for me and I got a little emotional. This woman in my group wanted to pray for peace for the father who perpetrated the incident. I suddenly had this overwhelming sense of purpose. I realized I wanted that for my step-mother as well - no matter where she is today, whether in jail or released and somewhere out there in the free world, that I pray that she too has peace. I briefly explained a bit of it to these virtual strangers who are quickly becoming women I want to "live life with" (as our church describes is the purpose of small groups). I mentioned to them that its possible that she did get out for good behavior, because she wrote me 10 years ago saying she had found Christ and forgiveness. At the time I didn't believe her. But if it was true and as a result she turned her life around she could be out now. Tonight, I really hoped and prayed that she did find Christ and found that forgiveness. I finally excepted that if I was allowed to find and have a relationship with Jesus, God and the church then so can she.
This stunning realization and breakthrough almost moved me to tears and as I drove home all I could think about was how I wanted to get this down somewhere. I decided to do that here. Someday, after I have told more of the details of my story, I will link to this post again and it will all make sense. Even more, I think it will reveal just how extraordinary this day really was for me.
I thank God for getting me to this point. Life is an amazing journey.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Accidental New Thing #3
So today was unexpected. I had to go to work for 3 hours. That isn't the part that was unexpected because even though I was on vacation I knew I had to work today weeks ago. And work is a flexible term for what I did today. I went to a Luncheon Awards Ceremony. I've gone every year and even though I was on vacation I wanted to go this year.
So I left home today knowing I was going to go do that but then the rest of the day... I left open to figure out. I also figured I'd be back to the apartment sometime before the end of the night so I didn't take my "To Do" list from A.D. After the luncheon I decided to take the remaining time in the afternoon to go to look at apartments. My lease is up in January and I've decided that living 35 minutes from work, 45 minutes from church and any where from 30-60 (if not longer) minutes from all my friends and family members was just not worth it anymore.
I have a friend at my church that has been chatting with me about being roommates. It came up because we both found out our leases were up around the same time and we both want to save money. She currently lives a mile from our church in Chandler, AZ. If you don't know about the Phoenix Metropolitan area, Chandler has higher rents then where I currently live in north Phoenix. Her current one-bedroom rent is $700 something. I pay $500 for a studio in north Phoenix. If we move in together we could get a two-bedroom and each pay $450-$500. It wouldn't be much of a change for me, but I would save on gas and at least my rent wouldn't increase by $200.
So I went to check out a property that she had seen and liked. It was very nice but the cheapest apartment was $935. I was expecting that amount so it wasn't a deterrent but I wondered if I could find better. So I started driving. I called a friend (yeah I know - not good talking on the cell and driving - I need to kick the habit!) and while on the phone I turned into the next apartment complex down the street without really thinking about it. However, when I saw "Luxury Apartments" on the sign I pulled back out because I just didn't think we could afford that. So I kept driving, saw another apartment complex, but then decided to try and go to Walgreen's and see if they have one of those local apartment magazines. When they didn't I decided to just head back around to take a look at the apartment complex I saw after I turned out of the "Luxury Apartments."
As I drove back I laughed at how close the "Luxury Apartments" were to my church - literally can see the church from the property across the freeway. And I thought why not? Why not just see the property? You look really nice today and if its really incredibly expensive, just don't show it on your face, take a look and call it just plain fun. I toyed with the idea that this could be my new thing for the day - Touring a property you know you can't afford. It reminded me of something my high school guy friend and I almost did years ago. I had returned to visit from college and we had gotten together and we were driving around trying to figure out what to do. We suddenly saw an "Open House" sign and we decided to act as a prospective couple and take a tour. We almost did it but I chickened out. As this friend impossibly hilarious I didn't think I could contain myself during the tour. To this day I wish we had done it because I thought it would be a hilarious story.
I went into the property and was stunned to find out as she showed me the floor plans that they were running a special. The cheapest two-bedroom was $767! Almost $200 cheaper than the last place. It about bowled me over.
So while I couldn't say this was my new thing of the day I definitely took it as a sign to look at the apartment and seriously consider it. On top of all that the sales associate also attends our church! In the end I wanted to jump at it! However, even though I could put the holding cost and my application fee down and get the majority back in 48 hours if we decided against it, I just couldn't do it with out checking with K (my friend) first. As the sales associate and I were talking numbers K returned an earlier text I sent and I immediately called her back. And to make a long story short: I went and got her, she saw the model and we put the holding cost down. We even choose one that cost a little more so that we could have a first floor apartment (something we wouldn't have been able to afford at the previous apartment complex). My assignment for tomorrow is to call around and see if this is truly the best deal for us. However, this feels like it will be the place.
By the time we finished all of this it was 6:15. K was co-leading a bible study or as our church calls them a "small group" at 7:00. In fact she had invited me to attend weeks ago, but I honestly thought I had too much on my plate. I ended up telling her no for time being, but that I'd reconsider in the spring.
You see currently, I have:
1. an abuse step-study (I'll get into at a later time) support group I meet with on Monday nights.
2. a program called GriefShare - a Christian based support group - on Tuesday nights (my father died in July and I have been attending this group to support the grief process).
3. a program called Celebrate Recovery (the abuse group is an extension of this program) on Friday nights.
4. and of course Church on Sundays.
(all of which I will touch on in later posts)
For a woman who has been leery of religion for so long I was a bit overwhelmed by my schedule. Don't get me wrong, I love all the work and all the people I'm interacting with, but it sometimes is remarkable to see myself sitting in a Christian based support group almost every night of the week.
As I was taking her to this "small group" meeting she invited me again, this time saying, "Come to the first one. We are just meeting each other tonight and if you don't like, it then you don't have to continue." And I thought about it - my Monday and Tuesday groups will all end in the next month, so I could see about handling the additional night if I decide to continue, knowing it would be short term. The only thing that was holding me up was my "New Thing" commitment. And then it was like this "ah-hah moment" - this group can be my new thing for today. It wasn't on A.D.'s list, but the reality is I have added other things to the list, so not everything is going to be A.D. inspired. And the truth is I've been attending my church for over a year now and have been intending to join a small group for some time, but have always put it off. So this will actually be my first time joining an (official) Bible study.
In the end I joined her and it turned out that it was divinely inspired! I love the women in this group - they are real women with real issues, dynamic lives and interesting stories. Add to that it is a relaxed setting to dive into studying God. And that really was the part that made me hesitant to join. I was worried that it was going to be this hugely structured thing that would remind me of why I stayed away from religion for so long in the first place. And it wasn't like that at all.
And that's where I learned that this "Try a new thing" is actually just giving me a different view of the world. I'm not planning my life as much as I thought I would with it. I thought my whole vacation was going to be one thing after another but instead its just about opening up to possibility. And my life is just coming together so beautifully without me even trying.
I also love that I'm just listening to the unexpected idea that comes into my head like "Take a look at the apartments out of your league - it will be fun."
And that's how I accidentally stumbled into my new thing...
Day 3 - Wednesday, November 9, 2011: Start attending a Bible Study.
So I left home today knowing I was going to go do that but then the rest of the day... I left open to figure out. I also figured I'd be back to the apartment sometime before the end of the night so I didn't take my "To Do" list from A.D. After the luncheon I decided to take the remaining time in the afternoon to go to look at apartments. My lease is up in January and I've decided that living 35 minutes from work, 45 minutes from church and any where from 30-60 (if not longer) minutes from all my friends and family members was just not worth it anymore.
I have a friend at my church that has been chatting with me about being roommates. It came up because we both found out our leases were up around the same time and we both want to save money. She currently lives a mile from our church in Chandler, AZ. If you don't know about the Phoenix Metropolitan area, Chandler has higher rents then where I currently live in north Phoenix. Her current one-bedroom rent is $700 something. I pay $500 for a studio in north Phoenix. If we move in together we could get a two-bedroom and each pay $450-$500. It wouldn't be much of a change for me, but I would save on gas and at least my rent wouldn't increase by $200.
So I went to check out a property that she had seen and liked. It was very nice but the cheapest apartment was $935. I was expecting that amount so it wasn't a deterrent but I wondered if I could find better. So I started driving. I called a friend (yeah I know - not good talking on the cell and driving - I need to kick the habit!) and while on the phone I turned into the next apartment complex down the street without really thinking about it. However, when I saw "Luxury Apartments" on the sign I pulled back out because I just didn't think we could afford that. So I kept driving, saw another apartment complex, but then decided to try and go to Walgreen's and see if they have one of those local apartment magazines. When they didn't I decided to just head back around to take a look at the apartment complex I saw after I turned out of the "Luxury Apartments."
As I drove back I laughed at how close the "Luxury Apartments" were to my church - literally can see the church from the property across the freeway. And I thought why not? Why not just see the property? You look really nice today and if its really incredibly expensive, just don't show it on your face, take a look and call it just plain fun. I toyed with the idea that this could be my new thing for the day - Touring a property you know you can't afford. It reminded me of something my high school guy friend and I almost did years ago. I had returned to visit from college and we had gotten together and we were driving around trying to figure out what to do. We suddenly saw an "Open House" sign and we decided to act as a prospective couple and take a tour. We almost did it but I chickened out. As this friend impossibly hilarious I didn't think I could contain myself during the tour. To this day I wish we had done it because I thought it would be a hilarious story.
I went into the property and was stunned to find out as she showed me the floor plans that they were running a special. The cheapest two-bedroom was $767! Almost $200 cheaper than the last place. It about bowled me over.
So while I couldn't say this was my new thing of the day I definitely took it as a sign to look at the apartment and seriously consider it. On top of all that the sales associate also attends our church! In the end I wanted to jump at it! However, even though I could put the holding cost and my application fee down and get the majority back in 48 hours if we decided against it, I just couldn't do it with out checking with K (my friend) first. As the sales associate and I were talking numbers K returned an earlier text I sent and I immediately called her back. And to make a long story short: I went and got her, she saw the model and we put the holding cost down. We even choose one that cost a little more so that we could have a first floor apartment (something we wouldn't have been able to afford at the previous apartment complex). My assignment for tomorrow is to call around and see if this is truly the best deal for us. However, this feels like it will be the place.
By the time we finished all of this it was 6:15. K was co-leading a bible study or as our church calls them a "small group" at 7:00. In fact she had invited me to attend weeks ago, but I honestly thought I had too much on my plate. I ended up telling her no for time being, but that I'd reconsider in the spring.
You see currently, I have:
1. an abuse step-study (I'll get into at a later time) support group I meet with on Monday nights.
2. a program called GriefShare - a Christian based support group - on Tuesday nights (my father died in July and I have been attending this group to support the grief process).
3. a program called Celebrate Recovery (the abuse group is an extension of this program) on Friday nights.
4. and of course Church on Sundays.
(all of which I will touch on in later posts)
For a woman who has been leery of religion for so long I was a bit overwhelmed by my schedule. Don't get me wrong, I love all the work and all the people I'm interacting with, but it sometimes is remarkable to see myself sitting in a Christian based support group almost every night of the week.
As I was taking her to this "small group" meeting she invited me again, this time saying, "Come to the first one. We are just meeting each other tonight and if you don't like, it then you don't have to continue." And I thought about it - my Monday and Tuesday groups will all end in the next month, so I could see about handling the additional night if I decide to continue, knowing it would be short term. The only thing that was holding me up was my "New Thing" commitment. And then it was like this "ah-hah moment" - this group can be my new thing for today. It wasn't on A.D.'s list, but the reality is I have added other things to the list, so not everything is going to be A.D. inspired. And the truth is I've been attending my church for over a year now and have been intending to join a small group for some time, but have always put it off. So this will actually be my first time joining an (official) Bible study.
In the end I joined her and it turned out that it was divinely inspired! I love the women in this group - they are real women with real issues, dynamic lives and interesting stories. Add to that it is a relaxed setting to dive into studying God. And that really was the part that made me hesitant to join. I was worried that it was going to be this hugely structured thing that would remind me of why I stayed away from religion for so long in the first place. And it wasn't like that at all.
And that's where I learned that this "Try a new thing" is actually just giving me a different view of the world. I'm not planning my life as much as I thought I would with it. I thought my whole vacation was going to be one thing after another but instead its just about opening up to possibility. And my life is just coming together so beautifully without me even trying.
I also love that I'm just listening to the unexpected idea that comes into my head like "Take a look at the apartments out of your league - it will be fun."
And that's how I accidentally stumbled into my new thing...
Day 3 - Wednesday, November 9, 2011: Start attending a Bible Study.
Bold Assignment
Let me start by saying I've always loved to write and I have this immense desire inside me to one day write a book. In fact, I have an outline and a good start to it. However, its a huge undertaking and somehow I always seem to get distracted.
Distraction is a huge issue in my life. I have several half started projects throughout my apartment from scrapbooks from college (about 10 years old now) that need finishing to 10+ journals with attempts at longevity to I can't tell you how many other things... and again I am getting distracted.
In an effort to distract myself one day from something, most likely my writing, I stumbled onto something pretty wonderful on the Internet: a blog. I'm not saying I didn't know what a blog was - I'm not too unaware about the world. What I'm saying is that suddenly one was speaking to me. Not sure exactly what blogging etiquette is here so I'm not going to mention names. Let's just call it "A" blog. Only because it was the first blog I followed intently. In fact I went back and read from the very beginning. This girl/woman spoke to me on another level. Somewhere along the line she posted less frequently (turned out she was writing a book and then later was depressed for a time and didn't post) and suddenly I was at a loss. What to do in my "spare" time (or the time where I should have been working on some project but was looking for a distraction)? So I looked at blogs that "A" followed and that led me to "B" blog. Now "B" was a more prolific blogger, been at the game for years as well as posting multiple posts per week. I know because I went back and read them all. It took me months, but I loved it. And through "B" I found several other blogs that I occasionally frequent. But "B" (and "A" now that she is back) are still my favorites.
Anyways somewhere along the line I had this urge: I want to do this. And maybe I'll be able to do it without getting too distracted. Besides as much as I loved "A" and "B" and I could relate to so many of their stories about depression, anxiety and crazy families I wanted something... more. I started looking for a blogger who both talked about real things and also took it further and talked about God, religion and finding truth. But for me and maybe its the newness of my faith and the hesitancy I have about religion due to... well that will be a whole other post... in any case every religious blog I found was too staid or too pushy. I'm not looking for a sugar coated Pollyanna view of religion and the world. I wanted to read about a real woman's struggle to find purpose, love and God along with just the normal everyday comments about this strange, strange life. And something... I like to think God... was telling me "Eve, you're going to have to do it yourself."
So that has been going through my head for several weeks. And then two other things happened:
1) I've had an inspiring two weeks (another couple posts all by themselves) and in preparations for a two week vacation (I am SO ecstatic) I came up with this idea. What about trying something new every day for two weeks. I loved the idea, but got stumped around maybe idea #3... I mentioned my half thought out plan to my coworker and "joked" that I should let her make me a list of things to do. She jumped at it! Maybe because it gave her about 20 minutes of not thinking about work (shh... don't tell the bosses) or maybe because it truly is an interesting thing to propose. In the end she gave me a list of 28 things! Good thing, because a lot of the things I cannot see me doing (full body wax anyone?!). In any case #4 was "Start a blog writing about everything you have done." I had to smile because that seemed like a cool idea for a blog - "100 new things in 100 days!" And I was just about this close {---} to actually trying that! But I thought that might be too exhausting! Besides... I really did want to just start a blog about my life in general and not really focus on a gimmick.
I started talking about with my friends and family about the possibility of doing a blog. So many of them were excited about the endeavor - thought with how much I loved writing that blogging just made sense. My church friends even thought it was great that I wanted to be the blog that I so craved to find! The only person that was a little nervous about the blog was my mother. Her concern is that someone from our past would be able to find me via this blog. And it was this stunning thing for me. Because for the very first time in my life I didn't even thing about that. Always in the past, when I thought of my book I always worried about the possibility of someone I wanted to remain in the past coming back to haunt me once it was published. But this time - for the first time - I had no fear. Not because I think I can't be found. That's naive view of the Internet. But because for the first time in my life I know that my past is my past, I'm an adult now and I don't have to be afraid of the monster anymore. And that is a story for another several (hundred?) posts.
So I wasn't afraid - but still I hesitated until last night.
2) Last night I attended this "Being Bold in Relationships" seminar for the women at my church. And this lady started talking about boldness in general and then specifically "Bold Romance", "Bold Parenting", and "Bold Friendships". She then went on to talk about bold actions like "Bold Giving" (which inspired some items on my "try something new list") and "Bold Assignment" to name a few. The "Bold Assignment" felt like it was speaking directly to me when she said "If there is something that you feel has been nagging at you or put on your heart then you must do it even if it means a risk you will have to take." That was the whole thing about BOLDNESS - for every bold move there is an amount of RISK that must be taken and it may pay out or it may not. But the important thing is to try.
So this is my BOLD ASSIGNMENT. This new blog. This new beginning.
And I'll start by completing another BOLD ASSIGNMENT - I'm going to attempt 10 new things in the next 10 days. Especially since A.D. (my coworker) is planning on being my first visitor.
Day 1 (I started a day early) - Monday, November 7, 2011:
I called someone I haven't talked to in a long time. Granted it was my Uncle R. who had a heart attack this past weekend. But given the fact that I have a weird relationship with my father's family it was sort of an unusual thing to contact him. I'm giving that to me as my #1. Also new thing #2 (not that it counts in the count as it was the same day) - I told him I love him... strange because I probably hadn't said those words to him ever before. Also in the years before my Dad's death this past July, I probably hadn't said it to my own father in over 6 years - maybe longer. And given that R is the uncle that reminds me of my father the most in looks and voice then this was a huge thing for me.
Day 2 - Tuesday, November 8, 2011:
I started this blog. Now technically this post is going to be posted at like 1 am on Wednesday morning. But that's because it took me FOREVER to name my blog. I bought this AMAZING book called "Creative Blogging" by Heather Wright-Porto. And so after reading about how to start a blog and the importance of finding the right name. I went about the process. I got stuck because the name I wanted... Essentially Eve (go look up essential - it's perfect!) was taken by another Eve?! This Eve apparently decided to start a blog back in July. She set up the blog connected her picture and I think an "about me". But NEVER POSTED! Uggh! Frustrated! That was supposed to be my blog! Anyways it took me hours of reading through the "e's" in the dictionary only to finally go with my number 2 title "Entirely Eve". And that was only after I figure out a description tagline that made "Entirely Eve" make sense. But my hours wasted in the "e" section weren't wasted - that's where I was reminded of the word ecstatically and it wouldn't get out of my head. For awhile there the blog was going to be called "Ecstatically Eve" but I kept thinking that's a hard title to live up to!
Anyways... I think that's a good start to this chapter of my life. Stay tuned... I haven't quite figure out what I'm to do tomorrow (or today) for my new thing!
Distraction is a huge issue in my life. I have several half started projects throughout my apartment from scrapbooks from college (about 10 years old now) that need finishing to 10+ journals with attempts at longevity to I can't tell you how many other things... and again I am getting distracted.
In an effort to distract myself one day from something, most likely my writing, I stumbled onto something pretty wonderful on the Internet: a blog. I'm not saying I didn't know what a blog was - I'm not too unaware about the world. What I'm saying is that suddenly one was speaking to me. Not sure exactly what blogging etiquette is here so I'm not going to mention names. Let's just call it "A" blog. Only because it was the first blog I followed intently. In fact I went back and read from the very beginning. This girl/woman spoke to me on another level. Somewhere along the line she posted less frequently (turned out she was writing a book and then later was depressed for a time and didn't post) and suddenly I was at a loss. What to do in my "spare" time (or the time where I should have been working on some project but was looking for a distraction)? So I looked at blogs that "A" followed and that led me to "B" blog. Now "B" was a more prolific blogger, been at the game for years as well as posting multiple posts per week. I know because I went back and read them all. It took me months, but I loved it. And through "B" I found several other blogs that I occasionally frequent. But "B" (and "A" now that she is back) are still my favorites.
Anyways somewhere along the line I had this urge: I want to do this. And maybe I'll be able to do it without getting too distracted. Besides as much as I loved "A" and "B" and I could relate to so many of their stories about depression, anxiety and crazy families I wanted something... more. I started looking for a blogger who both talked about real things and also took it further and talked about God, religion and finding truth. But for me and maybe its the newness of my faith and the hesitancy I have about religion due to... well that will be a whole other post... in any case every religious blog I found was too staid or too pushy. I'm not looking for a sugar coated Pollyanna view of religion and the world. I wanted to read about a real woman's struggle to find purpose, love and God along with just the normal everyday comments about this strange, strange life. And something... I like to think God... was telling me "Eve, you're going to have to do it yourself."
So that has been going through my head for several weeks. And then two other things happened:
1) I've had an inspiring two weeks (another couple posts all by themselves) and in preparations for a two week vacation (I am SO ecstatic) I came up with this idea. What about trying something new every day for two weeks. I loved the idea, but got stumped around maybe idea #3... I mentioned my half thought out plan to my coworker and "joked" that I should let her make me a list of things to do. She jumped at it! Maybe because it gave her about 20 minutes of not thinking about work (shh... don't tell the bosses) or maybe because it truly is an interesting thing to propose. In the end she gave me a list of 28 things! Good thing, because a lot of the things I cannot see me doing (full body wax anyone?!). In any case #4 was "Start a blog writing about everything you have done." I had to smile because that seemed like a cool idea for a blog - "100 new things in 100 days!" And I was just about this close {---} to actually trying that! But I thought that might be too exhausting! Besides... I really did want to just start a blog about my life in general and not really focus on a gimmick.
I started talking about with my friends and family about the possibility of doing a blog. So many of them were excited about the endeavor - thought with how much I loved writing that blogging just made sense. My church friends even thought it was great that I wanted to be the blog that I so craved to find! The only person that was a little nervous about the blog was my mother. Her concern is that someone from our past would be able to find me via this blog. And it was this stunning thing for me. Because for the very first time in my life I didn't even thing about that. Always in the past, when I thought of my book I always worried about the possibility of someone I wanted to remain in the past coming back to haunt me once it was published. But this time - for the first time - I had no fear. Not because I think I can't be found. That's naive view of the Internet. But because for the first time in my life I know that my past is my past, I'm an adult now and I don't have to be afraid of the monster anymore. And that is a story for another several (hundred?) posts.
So I wasn't afraid - but still I hesitated until last night.
2) Last night I attended this "Being Bold in Relationships" seminar for the women at my church. And this lady started talking about boldness in general and then specifically "Bold Romance", "Bold Parenting", and "Bold Friendships". She then went on to talk about bold actions like "Bold Giving" (which inspired some items on my "try something new list") and "Bold Assignment" to name a few. The "Bold Assignment" felt like it was speaking directly to me when she said "If there is something that you feel has been nagging at you or put on your heart then you must do it even if it means a risk you will have to take." That was the whole thing about BOLDNESS - for every bold move there is an amount of RISK that must be taken and it may pay out or it may not. But the important thing is to try.
So this is my BOLD ASSIGNMENT. This new blog. This new beginning.
And I'll start by completing another BOLD ASSIGNMENT - I'm going to attempt 10 new things in the next 10 days. Especially since A.D. (my coworker) is planning on being my first visitor.
Day 1 (I started a day early) - Monday, November 7, 2011:
I called someone I haven't talked to in a long time. Granted it was my Uncle R. who had a heart attack this past weekend. But given the fact that I have a weird relationship with my father's family it was sort of an unusual thing to contact him. I'm giving that to me as my #1. Also new thing #2 (not that it counts in the count as it was the same day) - I told him I love him... strange because I probably hadn't said those words to him ever before. Also in the years before my Dad's death this past July, I probably hadn't said it to my own father in over 6 years - maybe longer. And given that R is the uncle that reminds me of my father the most in looks and voice then this was a huge thing for me.
Day 2 - Tuesday, November 8, 2011:
I started this blog. Now technically this post is going to be posted at like 1 am on Wednesday morning. But that's because it took me FOREVER to name my blog. I bought this AMAZING book called "Creative Blogging" by Heather Wright-Porto. And so after reading about how to start a blog and the importance of finding the right name. I went about the process. I got stuck because the name I wanted... Essentially Eve (go look up essential - it's perfect!) was taken by another Eve?! This Eve apparently decided to start a blog back in July. She set up the blog connected her picture and I think an "about me". But NEVER POSTED! Uggh! Frustrated! That was supposed to be my blog! Anyways it took me hours of reading through the "e's" in the dictionary only to finally go with my number 2 title "Entirely Eve". And that was only after I figure out a description tagline that made "Entirely Eve" make sense. But my hours wasted in the "e" section weren't wasted - that's where I was reminded of the word ecstatically and it wouldn't get out of my head. For awhile there the blog was going to be called "Ecstatically Eve" but I kept thinking that's a hard title to live up to!
Anyways... I think that's a good start to this chapter of my life. Stay tuned... I haven't quite figure out what I'm to do tomorrow (or today) for my new thing!
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